SPACED OUT

who am i? what am i doing?
getting disciplined, when life is brewing?
pensive thoughts of uncertain existence
were laid down to widen the distance
familiarity they say to give comfort attempts
but likeness is what bred contempt
in the brevity of just another moment
the mind spoke an intolerable torrent
with boredom and discomfort she got choked
she spread her wings and they were shocked
to build her nest she had worked
pent up anger and frustration stored
the days of celebration now began
the cork from the Champaign had just sprung
life was calling and she was running
now colours are shades of happiness, stunning
her loud chatter and laughter infectious
candid to the core and humor is obnoxious
misplaced frens, she found what she had lost
no more there were disloyal thoughts from the past
this was cornered, like on a roof top
she cudnt rise anymore, nor try to stop
would she walk down the stairs or take the plunge
yu n me wudnt ever know, or wud we chump?

A SINGLE MOMENT

Once I met a wise old man quiet like a kid,
happy and content, no emotions he hid.
Sitting on his veranda and rocking in his chair,
like a cradle with no compare.
This was the first time I noticed him

I wondered if this is where I would reach someday
would I be lucky enough to breath and stay.
a broken brim, a flower in a glass
a yellowing photo, in his hands clasped
This was the first time i noticed him smile

Thoughts always drifted as i saw him there,
I would speculate on my way to work each day.
What picture was it, that he held
fondly in his hands, memories it expelled
This was the first time i noticed his tear

i had to know, what was his despair
an uncaring child or no one to care
maybe i could meet him, i stopped and waited
but in that moment, the mind hesitated
This was the first time our eyes met

In moments unsaid we were friends and in moments un heard we spoke
In moments I saw him first and in the same moment it was the last ....

COURAGE TO CONVERSE

Silence breaks more hearts than words
Stray thoughts and suspicions it always heards
Misgivings, in the past are held back
Aimlessly stowed, in the hearts sack
The first seeds of doubt are sown
Watered with distance, out of proportions blown
Into the void passages of the mind
It keeps sinking deeper, harder to find
Soon delightful moments turn sour
The tree of uncertainty starts to flower
Harsh words are thrown, reasons are excuses
To understand one another, either refuses
At the wearing threads of the relationship they grapple
Yet the Courage to Converse deludes the torn couple!!

confessions of a trapped heart

The silver lining in the cloud is outshining the sun
Thots are still as grey trapped in a heart of fun!
Happiness is an inspired feeling so true
It exists in moments created by yu
Love is an expression of affection so pure
tht witout it a soul wilts and grows poor
shud i touch him, or will he turn away
am i not worhty, apart i must stay
Happiness exists, evrytime he smiles
but fear seperates me from him by miles
time will change the distancing tracks
but wht will seal these initial cracks
a relationship on a shaky foundation
is like a roadtrip with no destination
The heart feels cheated and turns blue
yearning to hear just, "I Love Yu"!!